You doubted me!

doubtJan 15th 2015, driving back from work. A sound comes in my ear. A soft whisper saying, you doubted me.

I answered, where and when!! The answer came back in the form of a question. How is your back? My answer was good.

I simply realized that I was healed. See in early November 2015, I was involved in car accidental where my back and neck was injured. I was going to the Dr three times a week since then. for over 6 weeks nonstop.    Yet in Dec 30th 2014 I was attending the 2014 Onething IHop conference in Kansas city and the preacher said if you need healing come up by the stage and ask the Lord for healing.. Yes, I doubted Him, Didn’t believe He would… Yet He did…

I pray Lord to teach me more to trust you and work out my faith.

Filling the Gap

Been hearing that lately over and over again. If you want to take something out of your life, you got to put something back in. 
But what should I put in… God has been pointing my heart to his word and telling me to put Him in. 
I am learning to let Christ fill in the gap.. God I need to you to be in every crack of my life. 

Discovering Sadness is good for the heart!

Choices we have to make. Decisions we must follow upon. Bitterness or Grace.
Discovering God and discovering myself..
Tried to #swim my way in #life, finally realized I was called to walk on water. The trick: keep my #eyes on my #creator and #savior. #Jesus.
Hunger for God was always on my heart.  But always thought of it as a cherry on the top of my cake (my life) yet, discovered that I need to have my cherry at the bottom to become the foundation of my life.
Sorrow is better than laughter, for by sadness of face the heart is made glad. – Ecclesiastes. 7:3
Sadness is good for the heart. It’s a natural way we process emotion. Laughter can be very surface, top layer kinda rundown, while sadness hits on the inside. Sadness awaken the soul.
God CANT’S fix what isn’t broken.
Some times we have to pause and think. Sometimes we gotta stop working, stop drawing the picture. We have the greatest painter to do it right.
Freedom of suffering:
We don’t begin to know what #freedom is until we come to a place in our lives where we have no need to impress anyone. #truth #love #Jesus
You say what a risk to step out of the boat and walk on water.. I tell you it is a guaranteed calculated risk. Think of the possibility of walking on water.
This is the truth, His truth. Yes, truth doesn’t set us free until we learn to develop the habit and talent to allow truth to change us. Hold on to His truth, which you will find in one place, in His presence. 

You, Three in One!

Your confident calm tones of voice. Your choice of words. Your timing to when to listen and when to speak. All with a certainty of unsure shadows.

I can almost see your smile and sadness or is it yearning… They all are chasing me, my addiction to our conversions.

Your three layers, toughness unkind surface, yet soft gentle middle and last is confusions… all I want, yet can’t… silence is the end of the story.

حبي الصغير…مات صغير…

حبي الصغير. قتلتيه في المهد وديع.        
كان حبكي حلم رضيع .كان حبكي ولاده ثانيه لقلبي الضريع.
الحلم بقي حلم ، لم يري حقيقه الصبح  الموضئ.
الرضيع لم يستطيع ان ينصب قامته و مات صغير.
السؤال يبقي.. هل كان حبي طفل رضيع آم حملآ كازپآ

You killed my young love, you killed in its cradle 
Your love was young feeding new born, it was my second birth

The dream, became nothing but a dream. it didn’t see the morning light
The new born couldn’t stand straight and dies in its early days

The question continued, was my love a new birth or false pregnancy